The Student Purgatory

You have committed the sin of putting things off, and now the payday is coming. You put maximum effort into concentrating on your studies. You have to make it.

You’ve had the time to learn things properly, but it’s too late now. You are a cornered animal and must learn to survive in this game of insanity. This feels like intellectual violence because it is. You would do anything for it to stop, but the only way out is to go on. The quantity of information you have to rapidly learn seems to grow, while the clock is ticking.

The natural survival mechanisms are activating. You are now free from all the desires besides those related to survival. If you thought your brain could only fit as much in one day, now you can learn twice more and do it well.

As the exam is approaching, your concentration grows. All the energy at your disposal condenses into one point. It is so powerful that it feels like you could break wooden sticks with it. But you choose to do something else, directing it towards your only task – the Purpose.

The Purpose is all you have now. It is your past, present, and future. Life is so simple – It all boils down to Zero or One. Since you cannot imagine existing in nothingness, you choose to go toward One.

The time has almost come, yet it still does not make sense! You desperately think:

“Impossible! There is too little time left.”

But the sacrifice of all the blood and sweat will not let you turn back. Besides, remember? There is Nothing there.

The last hours come, and you realize that the picture is about to complete, but some pieces are missing. Now, it is not about survival anymore. It is about beauty and completeness. This empowers you to fill in the elements and put the puzzle together. And it fits.

You engrave the picture into your memory as if it were rock. How ridiculous! The mind is fluid, so you will forget. Soon, the engraving will be pierced with cracks. Unnoticeable at first, then visible, and finally, whole fragments of your creation will disintegrate, collapsing into the abyss of oblivion.

One day, your entire mind will follow. Where there is life, death always comes. But today, just for one instant, you are complete.